Can I have just one NORMAL day.

Sometimes I just think it is impossible for me to live a “normal” day of life.   I had a “ahhh” moment in the Wal-Mart today.   I was already stressed out because, I have lot on me at the moment.   Me being in love is starting to interfere with my family.  I am not going to let that happen though.  Someone in my family is having serious healthcare issues that has got me worried.   I was at Wal-Mart calling my step mom asking her what she wanted.  This ten year old kid was screaming!  I mean loud as hell.   I am having chronic pain that medicine will not help (its my neck). I was already pissed I had to go to the Wal-Mart for my step mom.  It F’ed up when when I go out I have to get stuff but when I am out with them we can stop at a place on the way.   In the meantime this kid is screaming, he was about 10 or so yelling at his mom wanting some toy. The mom was just like saying “no” to the kid.  The next high pitched scream I yelled “Get a stun to your kid so he will shut up”.  I was ready to get into a verbal argument because I was pissed.   

Now, My Fashion Disaster Album on Facebook is not meant to make fun of anyone.  It’s just to draw attention not to go out in public looking like shit.  

I really love my “Beau”.  I am really sad that I haven’t seen him in awhile.   I have been so busy with the holidays.  The thing is I want to spend alone time with him.   Now, I know that sounds sexual but I just want time with us two away from drama possibilities. Away from the people where he lives near.  He is really on the down low and it’s impossible to have a relationship in his town. I could careless if anyone sees here.   It reminds me of that song.

Love me or Hate me, its still an obsession.

Love me or Hate me, that is the question.

If you love me then Thank you!

If you Hate me then F*** you!

Lady Sovereign

Today my dad and step mom were arguing about where their grave plots were.  I am thinking to myself.  “Why the hell does it matter?  Your dead... It isn’t like your going to notice it”. 

Sorry, I am still working on “Unscripted”.  I am basically waiting on Asurion to get me my new phone.   

You prepare a table before me
       in the presence of my enemies.
       You anoint my head with oil;
       my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me
       all the days of my life,
       and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
       forever.

Psalm 23 5-6

With Love, Peace and Prayers.   

JAM