Screaming in a crowded room... No one looks up.

I go to McDonalds tonight to get food.   I was hungry; I just can get something’s off my mind.   I like none of my music.   I couldn’t give blood today because my pulse rate was from 116-135.   I am hardly eating.   With that being said, there is something on my mind that is digging away.   Its not a “guilty” conscious it’s just my
“safety net” I put myself in is gone.  

I am embarking on something I have never done before.

With Love, Peace and Prayers

Justin

Living in NC...?

I really think later in life, that I will not be residing in this area. It is really weird in this area. I went on the Gaston Gazette online. If your arrested, your a celebrity. If you do something sexually bizarre your on the front page. There is a 17 year old that lives about four minutes from my home being arrested for having drugs, alcohol and weapons on school property. I thought stuff couldn't happen near me, I live in a upscale neighborhood. Then we see on the Gazette Homepage "man accused of having sex with horse". I don't even need to comment on that. An armed burglar was nice enough to say "thank you". The police do not realize the extent of gang activity. The Gaston Gazette does not realize how bad they make the county look.

"god said: get up and do something"- Dr. McCall

Justin A. Morgan

Internalizing Homosexuality. :/

This morning is kind of like no other, I woke up on my own free; Lady Gaga didn't get a chance to sing. I am spending the hour before class catching up on the news.

I listen to about all music. My iTunes library has everything from Chris Tomlin to Madonna to Kanye West.

I am disgusted to see a High School coach making two male players hold hands as a form of punishment. As the students did the task mandated by the coach the other students laughed. This is internalizing homophobia.

Officials from the Aurora Public Schools say they are investigating the claims that Coach Grant Pippert told freshmen Rafael Merced and another student to hold hands and run together after a brief altercation. The two were taunted by their teammates, who called them derogatory names. Merced told KMGH-TV News that he felt the experience was humiliating.

http://advocate.com

What makes me astonished. What if one of them is gay. Believe it or not world, there are everyday people who are gay. The conclusion that came to mind is suicide. That could be the breaking point. You know, this is a first direct way I have seen. Most of the other times it's normally the coach uses feminizing names. To men being feminized is like a Cardinal Sin. I just think of the witnesses and the two students. If you haven't realized I am against homophobic behavior because I strongly believe it contributes to teen suicide. Here is the LINK for full article.

With Love, Peace and Prayer

Justin

Diving Deeper.

I start out rewriting this. At first, I was trashing my family. I was basically point out their ignorance.

I was born to a southeast family, with an extended stepfamily. My family extends to Canada, Germany and Tennessee. Most of my family is located within in the Carolinas. I was raised in the Church of God church and later migrated over to the Southern Baptist. I now consider myself an outcast from both. Although I am still Christian, I don’t agree with the SBC. With family reaching in the roots of church they were raised homosexual people are an abomination. Don’t get me started on the fact they “forget” or disregard the other ones. This is kind of a bad example but I’m using it anyway. It’s like of like Hitler’s Reign over Germany; when your exposed to a lie or in my case just a piece of material you believe it. The Nazi party distributed news and comics of Jewish people being subpar. The German People the evidence that they cooked up and they believed it. I don’t intend to portray the church or family as Nazis’ but it’s an example.

I am angered that the false claim against Washington states DOMA. (DOMA = Defense of Marriage Act)

Also in Reidsville (115 miles from Charlotte; right outside of the Triad), North Carolina the Matt Boswell and the Hillbilly Blues Band got the boot for the town festival after it’s homohatin’ lyrics. His Lyrics:

"Well you'll never take my guns, and I'll pray anywhere that I please./My daddy always told me, if you were able, and didn't work then you don't eat./All you Wall Street bankers, as far as I'm concerned, you can all go to Hell./And you can't get married, you stupid gays and queers, so why don't you go somewhere else?"

It’s good to see some of rural North Carolina get into the action. Thanks Reidsville.

What happens over time? Change.

With Love, Peace and Prayers,

Justin

The next chapter... Starting things off.

I am going to be the true me on this blog; unlike my “last chapter” on Myspace where I would use pronouns. I am no longer using pronouns.

This moment couldn’t be possible without the power or prayer. I have been waiting for the perfect person since I was 16. The perfect person is a dude and I love him so much.

I know this is real love. He lives in off I-77; I had to show him to the 485 so he could get to I-77. I broke down when I got off the Wilkinson Blvd exit.

My step-mom understands. I think there is a snowstorm in hell.

With Love, Peace and Prayers

Justin