"21 years" Let's Summer Begin.

You are walking down a crowded street through various shades of people. Summer’s harshest heat, a story in your eyes will speak until your mind’s at ease.

21 years have come and gone and that story is still unfolding.

suitcase packed you’re moving on with the memories you’re holding.

will you be home when you arrive?...21 Years 

you are driving down a country road, besides a shady river.

The sky turns dark as stone, the trees begin to shiver.

the grace of God is night.

21 years have come and gone and that story is still unfolding.

suitcase packed you’re moving on with your memories you’re holding.

will you be home when you arrive?...21 Years 

if you look into your future life, decades from this question.

do you imagine a familiar light burning in the distance?

the love that never dies.

21 years have come and gone and that story is still unfolding.

suitcase packed, you’re moving on with the memories you’re holding.

will you be home when you arrive?...21 Years 

 Let Summer Begin...Im Ready.  

A Critical Update.

I have been so confused for the last few days on what I want to do and questioning the actions that have taken place.  I have been extremely busy getting ready to go back to school.  I am sure and made the definite decision I am going back to school.  I am just afraid I am going to have a overload and have anxiety attacks.  I going to admit a issue that has been on my mind.  I have been feeling alone; I am not a co-dependent person.  I live an independent life.  I want someone there I could call and they could come right over.  It seems like most of my choices in my area code are deranged; or it must be me?   All I ask for is a decent person that is looking for a long term committed relationship.  I have learned that no one is perfect and I know I need to allow flexibility because I cannot marry myself.  I am just missing that someone that will make my life complete.  

With Love, Peace and Prayers

Mr. J.A.Morgan 

My Thoughts Part 1

If I were to have big change how could I do it. I am already loosing weight, I loosing it naturally.  My body reacted to a medication(s). I will admit when you can afford the med’s you will by them.  I slap a bitch crazy if they think a medicine is going to change them long-term. it takes willpower from the person. 

One more smile I fake

And try my best to be glad 

One more smile does the maker make

Because he knows I'm sad

Oh Lord, how I know

Oh Lord, how I see

That only can the maker make

A happy man of me 

Later on...

Today, was fun.   I went to Wesley's house and had fun.  I tried to run down a hooker. I beeped my horn and turned down the side road.  Wes’s got scared and was like “GO GO GO GO”  

I have a ton of Media from the night I will have to edit some of it before I put it up.  Occupational sensitive material.   

I can broadcast live video from my location if I am getting any EV signal. Gaston County has almost 100% Wireless High Speed 3G.  Gaston County currently 4G in select areas. 

Someone texted me and told me my house was right down the road from the river, and I live near  Duke Energy’s McGuire Nuclear and how I need an evacuation plan.  I said... All that matters that I get electricity and this month it’s $107 that good when the average home consumes $155 this month and to leave and drive south.  I am super blonde when it comes to stuff like that.  My home is eco-friendly! It just takes energy to cool my home to a constant 64 degrees, but in the winter i change I like it about 76.   I start to think my computer has the energy star thing. They say it uses less energy to run than a light bulb.   I feel good about the computer. 

  

Off to bed...  Nighty Night. 

Changes in Management

IMMEDIATE RELEASE- Tuesday, June 22, 2010

To: Employees; J.A.MORGAN LOGISTICS, PARTNERS and CUSTOMERS.   

Subject: Changes in Management 

Well, I have made my decision, I am going to go back to school to better myself.  I am going back in the Fall of 2010 (August 2010).  I am going to spend this last month making sure my business is in good hands. I am not going to juggle both of them like I did before.  I can assure you that everything will be in good hands.  I will still will be able to make the final say on important decisions.   

I will keep you up to date on every change that occurs.  My commitment of transparency will not be hindered during this change of management.  I have set up a number you can call, a representative will be able to assist you 24/7 with any questions.  You can find this number on your online portal (IBM Websphere) or on your next bill.  Every change will be posted on Websphere.  No one will be negatively impacted on this transition. 

My employees are my backbone and if any situation arises that you need to speak with me, please do not hesitate to call, I will personally get back with you within a reasonable amount of time.  I will still attend meetings through telepresence.

Thanks for your hospitality and understanding,

MR. JUSTIN A. MORGAN

President & CEO

Finding Tomorrow. Synchronizing Today 

Official Decision on Future.

It’s hard to start a new blog. I go through so many “entries” before I decide to post one.  Normally they are too personal.  Right now, I am evaluating my health and seeing if returning to Gardner-Webb would be possible.  My last semester I was overwhelmed, and my doctor advised me it would be best to take a “break” from everything.  I think I am doing more than I ever did at Gardner-Webb.  I just need the motivation to back me up.  I spent my last semester on pain medication and the effect it had on me was in the morning I would wake up unbelievable pain.  I had to reach for the medication and I would go back to sleep if I had to take it during a class I will be fading in and out.  I think it would be rude to go to class and drowsy.  Then I just basically gave up after I missed so many days.  The healthcare appointments kept  me busy and I had to miss so many classes.  I had to see healthcare in my insurance network they would be in Gastonia to Charlotte (Over 60 miles away from GWU).  Now I see my doctor on three month intervals.  I can schedule it on a friday afternoon or days off; if I know 3 months ahead of time. I do think I can be successful in future semesters at GWU.

With Love Peace and Prayers

J.A.M.

Chapel Hill and Relationships

I didn’t understand,  The brand name Advil (Ibuprofen) was the same price as the Walgreens brand price.  Random moment.   

Today, I made it to UNC (University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill).   With with the intention on meeting someone and seeing how life is at bigger institutions. I don’t want it to seem like I am trashing this dude; I will be honest this dude is way more intelligent that I.  He is geared heavily toward school, i’m the one to take a semester off and “rest”.  I did originally take off of school because of a close family members health condition.  I am going through healthcare issues right now also.  Everyone at the school was literally running to be somewhere.  I am use to the laid back feeling at GWU.  

Before you ask,  I drove the Maxima 3 hours away, and can you believe it didn’t mess up at all.   The Maxima can go over 100mph (don’t ask).   I kind of made it 2 hours and 10mins.  I left, I got all the way to Concord Mills to get gas.   Car went 373 miles on one tank.  I drove 700 with beau even tho he drove back from the beach.    

I cant find my Flat Rate boxes and I don’t want to deal with the (bad word) lady at the post office.  

It just seems like I cannot find anyone that is compatible with me.   This is all I could think of on the way back home:

I dreamed a dream in time gone by 

When hope was high and life worth living 

I dreamed that love would never die 

I prayed that God would be forgiving 

Then I was young and unafraid 

And dreams were made and used and wasted 

There was no ransom to be paid 

No song unsung, no wine untasted 

But the tigers come at night 

With their voices soft as thunder 

As they turn your hope apart 

As they turn your dreams to shame 

And still I dream he’d come to me 

That we would live the years together 

But there are dreams that cannot be 

And there are storms we cannot weather 

I had a dream my life would be 

So different from the hell I’m living 

So different now from what it seemed 

Now life has killed the dream I dreamed

With Love, Peace and Prayers

Mr. Justin M

I think I found "it."

I used to write all the time and the start of a new blog was about being in my first real real relationship.  I knew it was real,  as we were departed I got very emotional.  I was in Love.  I learned what it felt like to be in love.   I’m sure the person who I dated wouldn't mind me saying this.  I learned there were differences, between us and the world.   I am still good friends with him.   We had a little commitment.  It took place at a blockbuster in a Nissan Altima  We were to be one together (a monogamous)  and if we broke up we would still be friends.   I stand on that end of my commitment.  It will always remain just friends.  Hell, he is still one of my best friends.   I stepped out of my “sheltered christian university life:”I wanted to do live a normal teenage life before I aged. then I came back down to  We broke up on good terms.   It took a moment to get over.  

I am still not working,  my doctor still I am to.   I wish I could have taken that 911 job.  My doctor was like Hell No, that would be too much on me.  So I work at home for my family.

The reason I am writing this,  as you know I never told who I dated or was talking to after all this time I think I might have found someone who is genuinely themselves we share a lot in common all the way down to the roots for our liking of Coldplay.  I honestly quiver when I get a SMS or an get on my mind finally, someone has stepped forward. I’m ready to embark

Love Peace and Prayers

J.A.M